Wednesday, August 28, 2013

The delicious lightness of aging

It has been a very busy summer and I am behind with all bloggery. 
Many posts are brewing, but for now, I just want to share this small thought. 

I blogged about the renovation of our dwelling, an ancient mobile home. The line was:"Trailers are not built for the centuries but then, neither are we." 

We were told we'll get about 20 more years out of it. Since we are now 70 and 77, that should do the trick! My ideal age for checking out would be 84, one full cycle of Uranus. Talk to me again when I am 83:).  

I feel great and enjoy every day, especially after spending last July and August in hospital and wheelchair. But I do not fear death. Dying, the process, yes of course. I hate pain. But the thought that every day that passes makes the future shorter, that I am OK with.

My allotted three score and ten have seen more peace and less tragedy, more pleasure and less pain than most people's. Anything from here on is bonus.

I support local and organic etc as much as possible because I care about this planet. But when it comes to ourselves I catch myself relaxing about health rules. After years of avoiding tuna because of mercury I succumbed to the temptation of 2 cans for a buck. Yes, it was dolphin friendly.

If I were raising small children I would get organically grown tomatoes and can them in glass. As it is, it takes a while for those hormone-disrupting substances in the can to build up and do damage, and my hormones are beyond disrupting anyway. Large tins of commercial tomatoes are on special right now for a dollar each, and there is much rejoicing as I stock up.

And so on. There is a sense of lightening. Not ready to fly away yet, but no longer quite as tethered to this dimension as we used to be. It feels joyous.


DrKat said...

I cannot begin to tell you how refreshing you always are.

troutbirder said...

I can relate. Being a young 72...:)

Ien in the Kootenays said...

@DrKat: Wow, thanks! @Troutbirder: trust a historian to have perspective.